my first birthday without you

Sat. was my birthday.  I am 43 years old.  I did ok.  There were lots of business to keep me occupied.  Oh how I wish I could have called him down for his portion of cake.  I have 15 years of memories of giving him his portion of cake or dinner.  I have often baked in the kitchen, sometimes he would help too, then calling him down.  I know that once, when he was little, I would call him from playing outdoors, with his siblings, but mainly, this last few years....from his spot upstairs, playing video games.
Here is what I posted on my carepage:

My birthday marks the first of a series of our family birthdays in our sweet little family. Oh so bittersweet does today leave me. For today is not just the day of my birth and the first one without our dear Brave boy, but it also, as the 2nd, marks 2 months since he has been on earth!
Oh how death doth sting....for us here on earth...
Missing our boy at every turn but finding love and comfort in our Savior and our dear family left here on earth as we comfort and move toward one another, held by your prayers and dear close friends that love us.
1 Corinthians
54 So when this corruptible shall have put on incorruption, and this mortal shall have put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory.
55 O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?
56 The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law.
57 But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
58 Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.
Braveheart's labor was not in vain...he now is Victorious!!

Love you and missed you my birthday sweetie.