So much is happening. Since the relapse, I am trusting God more everyday, pleading and thanking Him for healing and guidance. We live every moment with that little deep flutter of anxiety deep inside our gut. Our child's life is in our hands!! Well, we know he is in the Father's hands, but we are the stewards here on earth. We are feeling little tugs of direction. Sometimes that direction is hard to follow, like if you are being asked to walk through a cave full of vicious lions, unsure of what even awaits you/your child on the other side.
Emotions come and go like a roller coaster. Before we were excited to be done and now we are looking forward to more/ worse of the same with no same hope as before. We haven't given up mind you!! Often God fills us with hope between moments of despair.
22And Jesus answered saying to them, "Have faith in God.
23"Truly I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be taken up and cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says is going to happen, it will be granted him.
24"Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they will be granted you.
I am hopeful even now and ask that you pray with me from Mark 11:23, 24
Merry Christmas from our family and may you just love up on those kids a little more today and always, what a gift our children are from God.