graduate season

sitting at the recital, the music is so powerful
feelings overwhelm me, I can't help but think of you
what will never be,  one day

thoughts of you, coming in bursts
like a juicy blueberry, explodes in mouth
this is what it looks like in my brain
too many thoughts to navigate

 friendships so tight, many thanks given
reminders of old friends, a way of life now gone
who would that have been for you?
remember? you were well then, all was right in the world

this is a day that we will never celebrate with you
no displays of your courage or the battles you fought
the piano keys will not feel your fingertip's press
no thanks given for all who have contributed to your life

this could have been you
if you were still on this earth
one day in the near future,
I 'feel' acutely, what I will have missed

 a tear must flow, it cannot be helped
feeling your absence, my heart beats on,
trying to ignore that part that burns, longing for you
so many things you missed, while fighting for your life
 yet so much more gained..........for eternity